In the fall of 1932, a timber cruiser named Judson Vestal walked into the Ozark ridge locals called Long Shadow and never came back. Searchers found his satchel hanging from a black gum tree, his…

Some places keep what happens in them, but not all of them. Most land simply forgets. A field disappears, a road is washed away by a flood, a house collapses on itself. After a season or two, the earth remembers none of it.

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But some places are different. Some places remember. And there are hollows in the mountains where the maps hesitate to name things, where the land does not merely remember but keeps a note, waiting for the right moment to present it. This is the story Merrick Ashdown told me once, on a porch overlooking a valley that was empty of everything.

He told it to me one time, completely, without stopping for breath. When he finished, he sat for a long while staring at the valley. Then he said something else. He said the old woman had told him something at her door that day that he never wrote down.

He had kept it with him for forty-two years before he finally let it out. The story happened in the autumn of 1932, in a part of the Ozark Mountains that Arkansas had given a name to, though the people who lived there mostly did not use it. On the county maps it was called Long Shadow Ridge. On older maps, drawn by surveyors long before, it bore another name in a language most of the region’s inhabitants no longer spoke.

And on the oldest maps of all, the ones made by the people who lived in those valleys before any surveyor arrived, the place had no name at all. They walked around it. They knew where it was, then they walked around it. Merrick Ashdown was thirty-eight that autumn.

Tall, but not in a way that drew attention. Narrow-shouldered, with a face beginning to show the weathering that comes to faces when a man spends his life outdoors. His hair was the color of wet stone, his hands long and fine, better suited to a piano than to the work he did. He had been the game warden for that part of the country for twelve years.

Twelve years is a long time in a quiet place like that. Long enough to learn every hollow and the way the wind sounds in each one. Long enough to know which of the old farmers kept his whiskey in coffee cans and which used glass jars. Long enough to stop being the man who came from outside.

He was not from the region. He had come up from the plains after his wife died of influenza in 1929, climbing to the highest place he could find that did not hold her voice. But twelve years is a long time. The people of Fern Gap called him Merrick, not Mr.

Ashdown, and that was as close to belonging as a man could get without being born there. He had a cabin about two miles above the town, on a rise overlooking the little creek that gave the valley its name. He kept a rifle he rarely used, a shotgun for birds, and a dog named Bone. Bone was perhaps the third or fourth thing Merrick had ever loved in his life.

A big red coonhound with a soft mouth, afraid of nothing, who walked the fence line every evening until about mid-September of that year. After that, Bone would not cross that fence line after sunset. Merrick noticed it before he understood it. Bone would come out of the cabin in the evening, and instead of trotting to the edge of the yard as he always did, he would stop at the gate, sit down, and stare up the hill, unmoving.

Merrick tried whistling him out. He tried walking ahead of him. He tried once putting a rope on him. When Bone planted his weight against the collar and looked at him with an expression Merrick had never seen on a dog, he stopped trying.

He wrote in his notebook that Bone was getting old. That was a Wednesday. He remembered because Judson Vestal had come out of the county office in Fern Gap the previous Wednesday, shaken his hand, and said he was heading to Long Shadow to survey timber for a company out of Little Rock. Judson did not come back.

Judson Vestal was forty-one, a big man with a tobacco-colored beard and a wife in Russellville he had not seen since Easter. He worked for the Southern Timber Company and came once a season to walk the woods and mark what was worth cutting. He had tramped the Ozarks for nearly twenty years. He knew what he was doing.

He told the county clerk in Fern Gap he would be back in three days. Three days passed. Judson did not return. At first, no one paid the matter much mind.

Timber men get delayed by weather, a twisted ankle on a rocky slope, a stand of trees more interesting than the ones they were sent to look at. Four days, then five. On the sixth day, the clerk sent a message to Little Rock. On the seventh, the timber company sent two more surveyors, and Merrick was asked to go with them.

They walked Long Shadow for two days. They found Judson’s pack hanging from a branch of a black gum about a mile below the summit on the east face, where the light fades early. His pencil, his measuring tape, and his tobacco tin were still sealed. So was his notebook, and the last entry in it was from what appeared to be the middle of the morning of his third day.

The entry, written in the surveyor’s neat hand Judson had always used, said only: “Something is moving on the ridge above me. ” That was all. The two men Little Rock had sent did not go back up after sunset. They came down with Merrick, and when they returned to the county office in Fern Gap, each of them told him privately, without the other hearing, that they would not climb that ridge again.

Not for money, not for any timber that grew on it. Merrick wrote the report the way such reports are written. He said Vestal had likely fallen into one of the sinkholes that punctured the limestone under the ridge, and that the body would probably surface in one of the springs downriver in the spring when the water rose. It was the sensible thing to say.

Merrick was a sensible man. Two weeks later, they found Beesha Hawrin’s still. Beesha was an unlicensed distiller. Everyone knew it, and no one cared except when he sold to the wrong sort of people, which he usually did not.

He was a short, thin man in his fifties, his hands shaking so badly in the mornings that he spilled more of his product than he sold. He ran a small still in a pocket of a hollow on the north side of Long Shadow Mountain, in a stand of hemlock where the smoke could not be seen. He had run it there since before the war. No one, including Merrick, had ever troubled him about it.

His brother came up on Sunday mornings to take him to church. Beesha did not go to church, but his brother came every third Sunday anyway, and Beesha would come and sit in the back row, then tell his brother it had been nice, without meaning it, and go home. It had gone on for years. That Sunday, Beesha’s brother came down alone.

His face was pale as dishwater. The still was there. The fire under the pot was cold, but not cold for long. A coffee cup sat on a stump by the fire, half full, a thin skin of dust over the bottom.

A jar of finished whiskey stood on the ground, sealed and ready. A coat, Beesha’s coat, hung from a nail in the tree. Beesha was not there. Merrick went up with the sheriff.

The sheriff was a man named Boyd Cowell, sixty-two years old, sheriff of that county since before the county road to Fern Gap was built. Boyd walked around the still twice. He picked up the coffee cup and set it aside. He looked at the coat.

Then he said: “Merrick, I want you to write in your report that Beesha fell into a sinkhole. ”

Merrick looked at him. Boyd said: “And I want you to write it now, and I want you to write it before you say another word. ”

“Boyd,” Merrick said.

“Easy now,” Boyd said, with a calm that was almost a growl of wind. “Write it, son. Write it, and do not go back up that ridge after dark. I ask this as a favor to your dead wife, and as a favor to me.

”

The third one came in the last week of October. His name was Cletus Garnell. He was seventy-one, a trapper who lived in a cabin about halfway up the east side of Long Shadow Mountain. He had lived there alone for thirty-nine years, with four dogs.

Three were old and slow. The fourth was a small bitch named Digger, capable of treeing a bear if asked politely. One morning at dawn, the four dogs walked into Fern Gap. They came together up the main road, walking slowly, not barking.

They sat down in front of the county office. Digger’s front paws were bleeding as if she had been running over rocks. The other three were fine, but their heads hung low and they would not take food. Merrick gathered a party and they went up.

Cletus’s cabin was clean. His fire was laid, the way a man lays it when he means to come back to it. His coat hung on its peg. His boots stood by the door.

A book lay open on the table, face down. It was a King James Bible, open to the sixth chapter of Judges, with a hickory nut on the page as a bookmark. They found Cletus’s rifle in the woods about a hundred yards above the cabin, leaning upright against a tree the way a man leans it when he stops to get water or to listen to something. They did not find Cletus.

They searched for three days. On the afternoon of the third day, Boyd Cowell called Merrick over to where he sat on a stump above the cabin and said: “This is the last time I come up here. I want you to know that. This is the last time.

”

Merrick asked what he meant. Boyd looked at him for a long moment. Then he said: “There’s an old woman lives in the hollow on the other side of Fern Gap, where the road ends and the creek begins. You know her.

”

Merrick knew her. Boyd said: “Go see her. ”

“Boyd, I don’t need to see a Cherokee grandmother about a missing trapper,” Merrick said. And Boyd said: “Either you go see her, or you leave the mountains.

Those are your two choices now. And if I hear that you didn’t go see her, I’ll sit on my porch and wait to hear that you’re the fourth. And I’ll grieve for you, son, but I won’t be surprised. ”

The next morning, Merrick went down.

The road ran from Fern Gap south for about a mile, then stopped being a road and became a suggestion of one, then stopped being that too. Beyond lay a depression the mapmakers had long ago named Cold Hollow, though it was not particularly cold. The creek that ran through it had no name Merrick had ever heard. Some places still do not like being named.

The old woman’s cabin sat at the back of the hollow, where there was no road, beside a spring so clear you could watch the small pale crayfish moving along its bottom. The cabin was small, old. Built, Merrick thought, before the county was a county. The chimney was square, the door fitted tight.

A peach tree stood by the front step, tended with such care it looked pruned branch by branch. She was on the porch when he came up. Small. That was the first thing he noticed.

Small the way some old people get small, as if the years had folded them down and down until they took up only the space they had needed all along. Her hair was white, unbound, hanging down her back in a heavy braid. Her face was full of lines, her eyes black and steady. When she looked at Merrick climbing the path, she did not rise, did not smile, did not stop what she was doing, which was shelling beans into a wooden bowl in her lap.

“You are the game warden,” she said. Her voice was low and calm. She spoke English the way one speaks a second language mastered over eighty years: carefully, with great love for it, but never entirely at ease in it. “Yes, ma’am.

My name is Merrick Ashdown. ”

“I know your name. Sit down. ”

He sat on the edge of the porch.

She kept shelling beans. After a while she said: “The boy sent you. ”

“Yes, ma’am. ”

“You are here about the ones who did not come back.

”

“Yes, ma’am. ”

She was quiet for a moment. She finished the beans. She set the bowl aside.

She looked out over the yard, past the peach tree, toward where the sky above the hollow was held in place by the hills. Then she said: “Do you want to know the whole truth, or do you want to know the part of it that will let you sleep at night? ”

Merrick thought about it. He said: “I want to know the truth.

”

She looked at him. “Then you will not sleep well again. Not for a long time. Do you understand that before I tell you?

”

“Yes, ma’am. ”

“All right. Come inside. I need to make coffee.

”

Her cabin was one room. A stove, a table, two chairs, a bed covered with a quilt made of a hundred different pieces of cloth. Herbs hung from the rafters, not the dried decorative bundles you see in gift shops now, but fresh herbs stained with the smoke of handling. A basket sat on a shelf, so old it had gone the color of dark honey.

It had come with her, or with her mother, from somewhere in the east. She had not always lived in the Ozarks. She had come here, or her people had, the way people come to those hollows when what is behind them is worse than what lies ahead. She made the coffee slowly.

She poured him a cup. She sat across from him. She did not drink hers. She held the cup in both hands.

“The men who did not come back,” she said, “were all on the ridge. ”

“Yes, ma’am. ”

They had all been on the ridge after the sun touched the tops of the trees. Merrick thought about it.

Judson Vestal’s pack had been on the east face, where the light fades early. Beesha Hawrin’s fire had been cold but not cold long, and Beesha would have run the still all day, only banking it when the light began to go, because then the smoke would show against a pale sky. And Cletus Garnell. Cletus was a trapper.

Trappers run their lines at dusk. “Yes, ma’am. They were all that. ”

She nodded once, without satisfaction.

“That is the first thing you must know. It is the oldest rule, the one my mother taught me. ” Her mother had taught her, and her mother before her, back further than anyone could count. “Do not set foot on the ridge after the sun touches the trees.

”

Merrick waited. She went on. She recited the others the way one recites something learned so young you cannot remember not knowing it, drawing no lesson from it, just saying the words in order in a voice that neither rose nor fell. “Do not answer your name after dark if the voice is not a voice you can see.

”

“Do not turn to look at what walks behind you. Not once, to be sure. ”

“Carry iron on your skin. Silver is better.

The metal must be on the skin, not in a pocket, not through a shirt. ”

“Running water distracts them. If you are followed, cross running water, and do not look back. ”

“Accept nothing from a stranger on the ridge after dark.

No shelter, no fire, no water, no hand reached down to help you up. Accept nothing. ”

“If they speak to you, do not answer them. Silence is the only language they understand as a reply, and silence is the only word you will not regret.

”

She stopped. She looked at Merrick. “Those are the rules. Do you have them?

”

Merrick had been writing them in his small notebook. He looked up. “Ma’am, what are they? ”

And here she smiled for the first time.

It was not a warm smile. It was the smile of a person who has been asked a question so large that the smile is all the answer it needs. “That is not a question you want the answer to. ”

“I would like to know.

”

She looked at him for a long while. Then she said: “My people had their own word for them. I will not speak it. It is not said in a house at night.

It is not said in a house at all, if it can be helped. Do you understand? ”

“Yes, ma’am. ”

“They were here before my people.

That is important. Do you understand? We did not bring them. They were here.

They were here when my grandmother’s grandmother came to this country, fleeing what came to us from the east. We did not bring what walks on the ridges. It was already walking. ”

“Then what are they?

”

“They are the mountain. ”

He waited. “That is the closest word in your language. They are the mountain.

Not the mountain as people mean it, but the mountain as it means itself. When the mountain is hungry, it walks. When it grows old, it walks. When it wants to know what is on it, it walks.

And when it walks, it walks on two legs. ”

Merrick drank his coffee slowly. His hand was steady, but he was aware of its steadiness, the way a man is aware of something holding him in place. “Ma’am, if I do everything you have asked.

If I follow the rules. Will I be safe? ”

She looked at him. “No.

”

He waited. “You will be less in danger. That is what the rules are for. They are not to protect you.

They are to make the mountain, when it looks at you, look past you, because you have given it no reason to look at you closely. But if the mountain is hungry, and you are on it, and you are the only thing that is on it, then it will look at you closely, and no rule will save you then. ”

“Then how do I stop it? ”

She smiled again, the same smile.

“You do not stop the mountain, Mr. Ashdown. The men who did not come back. You cannot bring them back.

Do you understand? ”

“Yes, ma’am. ”

“Then what will you do? ”

He thought about it.

“I don’t know. ”

She nodded. She seemed pleased with the answer. Or at least, she accepted it.

“One last thing, then you will go, because it is getting late, and I do not want you on the road at dusk. Not now that you know. ”

“Yes, ma’am. ”

She leaned forward.

She was very small when she leaned forward, and her voice was still low and calm and careful, but there was something in it that had not been there before. “If you hear the voice of someone you loved. Someone who is not here. Someone who is gone.

Do not answer. Do not turn. Do not look. Do not do anything.

Not even in your heart, do not speak their name. Do you understand? ”

“Not even in my heart. ”

Merrick set down his cup.

His hand was not entirely steady anymore. “Ma’am, how did you know? ”

“Everyone has a voice. That is how they call you.

That is how they always call you. They find the voice you cannot help but answer, and they use it. That is why that rule is what it is, because it is the hardest rule to keep. ”

Then she said: “Go now, Mr.

Ashdown. Go now, and walk all the way, and do not stop until you reach your own door. ”

He went. The walk back to Fern Gap was two and a half miles, and Merrick made it in less, and by the time he reached his own door he had made his decision.

He made it walking. It was the decision of a sensible man. He was still a sensible man. He decided the old woman was old, and tired, and believed what she believed the way old people who have lived alone too long believe things.

He decided she had been careful and kind, and that what she told him was a story, and that the story was true the way stories are true: it held something real inside it, wrapped in a shape from a very long time ago. He decided the men had fallen into sinkholes. He decided the mountain was old limestone, and old limestone is full of holes. He decided he would write his reports, and file them, and take Boyd’s advice about not going up on the ridges after dark, and let the winter come.

In the spring, the bones would surface in the springs downriver, as bones do, and there would be an ending. He decided this at his door in the last of the daylight. All the same, he kept the rules. He could not help it.

He noticed on the way home that he had already begun keeping them without meaning to. He crossed the small creek at the edge of Cold Hollow instead of using the wooden bridge, because the creek was running water. When a bird called from deep cover behind him, a call that was close to right but not quite right, he did not turn to look. And when he got inside his cabin and took off his coat, he went to the small box where he kept things he no longer used.

He took out the silver locket that had belonged to his wife. He opened it and put it around his neck, and felt the metal against his skin above his breastbone, cold at first, then warm. He wore it every day after that, under his shirt. He told himself he wore it because he missed her.

He told himself that for a long time. The first strange thing happened three nights after he saw the old woman. Merrick woke late in the night and felt that Bone was not in the cabin. Bone slept at the foot of the bed every night, had slept there since he was small enough to fit in a hat.

But when Merrick sat up, Bone was standing at the front door, still and silent, staring at it. Merrick got up. He took the rifle. He walked over to Bone and stood beside him.

There was no sound outside. That was the first thing he noticed. There was no sound outside. It was late September.

The crickets should have been running, the owls calling from the hills, the little creek below the slope murmuring as it always did. There was none of that. Nothing. A silence as total as a room where a clock has stopped.

He stood at the door. He did not open it. He put his hand on the door and listened through the wood. He listened for anything: a breath, a weight, a warmth, a cold.

He felt nothing. He stood there for what he later thought was four or five minutes, but it might have been longer. Then Bone made a small sound, very small, at the back of his throat, and turned away from the door, and came and lay down at the foot of the bed. The crickets started again a moment later, all at once, as if a switch had been thrown.

Merrick sat at the kitchen table and did not sleep that night, and did not open the door. In the morning, when he opened it, there was nothing outside. No tracks, no signs, nothing. But when he went down to check the yard, he found three small smooth stones arranged in a line on the top rail of the fence.

He had not put them there. He looked at them for a long time. Then he took them off the fence and threw them, all of them, into the creek that ran below his cabin. Because the creek was running water.

And he was beginning to understand things without knowing it. The second strange thing came a week later. Merrick was walking the fire line on the east side of Long Shadow at midday, under a bright autumn sun. He was doing his job.

He was not on the ridge, but well below it. It was two hours before sunset, and he meant to be down in Fern Gap an hour before. As he walked, he heard his name. He heard it clearly.

It came from up the slope, out of the trees, and it was the voice of a woman. A voice he had not heard in three years. The woman said his name the way she had always said it, with a particular turn to it, the way she called him when she was in the kitchen and supper was ready and she wanted him to come inside. “Merrick,” she said.

She said it right away. He stopped. He did not turn. He did not answer.

He stood there on the fire line at midday, under the bright autumn sun, his hand on the small silver locket under his shirt, and held his breath for a time that seemed very long. The voice did not come again. But he felt it. He felt it up the slope, the way one feels a watcher in a room one has turned one’s back to.

And he understood, with a coldness that had nothing to do with the season, that if he turned. If he turned, and looked, and checked, and proved to himself that no one was there, he would not have left that fire line. He left the fire line. He left it without turning once, all the way down.

He passed every tree without raising his eyes to it. He crossed the little creek at the foot of the hill, and did not look back at what was behind him, even when he heard footsteps on the leaves that were not his own. He got in his truck. He drove to Fern Gap, walked into the county office, sat at his desk, and did nothing for nearly an hour.

Then he took the Cletus Garnell report out of his desk drawer and read what he had written. He had written that Cletus had likely fallen into a hole. He tore the report in half. Then he tore it in half again.

Then he sat and looked at the pieces. The friend I mentioned, whose name I have not yet told you, was Elton Boett. He was thirty-four, a deputy to Boyd Cowell. He and Merrick had come to know each other over the past three years.

Elton had grown up in Fern Gap, and he had known Merrick’s wife when she was alive, living on the plains, because Elton’s mother was a cousin of her mother’s, and the families had a strange kinship across the mountains. Elton was a short man, not much taller than the old woman, but strong the way short men from that country are strong: strong in the joints and strong in the will. Merrick had once seen him carry an anvil up a hill by himself. Merrick told Elton on a Tuesday in the last week of October that he was thinking of going up to Long Shadow again.

Not to the ridge. Just to Cletus’s cabin. He wanted to bring Cletus’s dogs home. Merrick had been keeping Digger and the three old dogs at his own cabin, and they ate and drank and slept, but they were not the same.

He thought they might want to go home. He thought their home was still there, even if Cletus was not. Elton said he would come with him. Merrick said he would rather go alone.

Elton looked at him for a moment. Then he said: “Merrick, you look tired. ”

Merrick said yes. “The way the boy looked when we came down from there,” Elton said.

“You look that tired. ”

Merrick did not answer. “You went to see the old woman, didn’t you? ” Elton said.

Merrick said yes. Elton nodded slowly. He did not ask what she had said. That was one of Elton’s qualities.

He did not ask the things a man would not answer. Elton said: “I’ll come with you. Not to argue, just so there’s two of us up there. I’ll come and be quiet, and we’ll get the dogs and be back by four.

”

Merrick thought about it. He thought about it and then he said: “All right. ”

That was the thing he came back to for the rest of his life. He said: “All right.

” He could have said no. He could have said no, and Elton would have shrugged, and gone home to his wife and his warm bed and his own dog. Elton would have been alive on Wednesday. He could have said no.

But he said: “All right. ”

They went up on Wednesday. It was a bright, cold morning, as late-October mornings are there, with a slanting sharp light, every leaf on every tree red or yellow and vivid as a wound. They took the four dogs.

They took Merrick’s truck to the end of the road, then walked. Digger went ahead of them, ears up, tail low. The three old dogs came behind. They went to Cletus’s cabin.

It was as they had left it. The Bible still on the table, the hickory nut still on the page. They walked around the cabin. They walked the yard.

They walked the little path Cletus had kept, the one that rose up the slope behind the cabin and went in among the trees. Merrick thought that maybe when Digger saw her home, she would tell them something. She would smell something, bark, dig, do the thing a dog does when it knows something. Digger sat on the porch.

She would not go in. The three old dogs lay in the yard. Elton and Merrick worked through the afternoon. They cleaned out the food, which was nearly gone.

They put out the fire. They took down the Bible and wrapped it in oilcloth, because Cletus’s brother wanted the Bible and it was time to bring it down. The light began to fade. Merrick was watching the light.

He had been watching it since they entered the yard. He knew where the sun was at every minute they spent there. He knew what the ridge above them looked like when the sun was high, what it looked like as the sun began to tilt, what it would look like when it touched the tops of the trees. “We need to go now,” he said to Elton.

Elton looked up from what he was doing. He was tying the oilcloth around the Bible. “Give me two minutes,” Elton said. “Elton,” Merrick said.

“Two minutes, then we go. ”

“Get the dogs,” Merrick said. Elton went to get the dogs. The three old dogs came.

Digger did not come. Digger was sitting on the porch, looking up the slope toward the little path that ran behind the cabin, and she was not moving. She made no sound. She sat the way Bone had sat at the fence when he refused to pass.

Elton went up onto the porch. He knelt beside Digger. He put his hand on her neck. He called her name.

Digger did not look at him. Digger stood. Digger walked slowly off the porch. She walked toward the path behind the cabin.

She did not run. She walked. She walked the way one walks when one’s name is called and one cannot help but come. Merrick shouted at Elton to grab her.

Elton grabbed her. Digger, who had never in her life shown a tooth to anyone, turned in Elton’s arms and bit him. She bit him hard on the wrist, bit until the blood came. Elton let go from surprise, and Digger went off the porch, past Merrick, up the path, and did not look back.

“Christ,” Elton said. “Leave her,” Merrick said. “Merrick. ”

“Leave her.

We’re going now. ”

They went. They came down the mountain quickly, but not running, because Merrick knew the mountain would notice if they ran. They took the three old dogs on leads.

They walked the little path they had come up. They did not look back. The sun touched the tops of the trees when they were about a quarter mile from the truck. Merrick felt it.

He felt the change in the light. He felt the shadows of the trees lengthen suddenly, the way shadows lengthen at that hour. And he felt something else. He felt something begin to walk.

Not near them. Not yet. Somewhere on the ridge, above them, far enough that it was still choosing. Elton felt it too.

Elton did not say so. But Elton put his hand on Merrick’s arm once, without saying anything, and they both walked faster. Then Elton stopped. He stopped so suddenly that Merrick had gone three steps past him before he knew it.

Merrick turned. Elton was looking up the slope. He was looking at nothing. He was looking at a place in the trees about forty feet above them, where there was nothing.

His face was the face of a man who had just heard something. “Elton,” Merrick said. Elton did not answer. “Elton, don’t,” Merrick said.

“That was my mother’s voice,” Elton said. “Don’t,” Merrick said. “Merrick, that was my mother’s voice. ”

Elton’s mother had been dead for eleven years.

“Elton, listen to me,” Merrick said. “That was not your mother. Elton, look at me. Don’t look up that slope.

Look at me. ”

Elton looked at him. Elton’s face was wet. Merrick had never seen him cry.

Elton was a short, hard man, and he had lost his mother when he was twenty-three, and he had buried her himself. Merrick knew that. “She said my name,” Elton said. “I know she did,” Merrick said.

“I know. Come with me now. ”

Elton looked up the slope again. Merrick grabbed him.

Merrick grabbed him by the coat and pulled. He pulled Elton down the path. Elton took perhaps five steps. Then Elton stopped again.

“She’s calling me, Merrick,” Elton said. “I know,” Merrick said. “She says she’s cold,” Elton said. “Elton.

”

“I have to go get her. Merrick, I have to go get her. ”

Merrick had the rifle. He raised it.

Not at Elton. At the slope. At the nothing between the trees. He raised it and aimed at the woods, at nothing, and shouted.

He shouted a wordless shout, the way one shouts at something in the dark that does not name itself, and fired the rifle once, into the trees. The shot echoed off the hill and came back to them. There was a long, dead silence. No birds, no wind, nothing.

Then a voice answered from up the slope. “Elton,” the voice said. It was the voice of Elton’s mother. Merrick did not look at Elton.

He did not turn. Because if he turned, he was afraid he would see on Elton’s face what he felt on his own. He kept the rifle up. Without looking, he said: “Elton.

Take my belt. Take the back of my belt. And walk behind me with your eyes closed, and do not listen. Count.

Count out loud. Count to a hundred. Then count to a hundred again. Do you hear me?

”

Elton did not answer. “Elton,” Merrick said. Elton took his belt. Elton began to count.

His voice was thin and trembling and ashamed, but he counted. He counted and kept counting. And Merrick walked. The three old dogs followed.

And behind them, from somewhere in the trees, a woman’s voice called Elton’s name. Over and over. They reached the truck. Elton was still counting when they reached it.

He had reached a hundred twice. Merrick had to open the door for him and put him inside, because his hands would not do what he told them. They drove away. The sun was behind the hills when they came into Fern Gap.

Merrick took Elton to his house. Elton’s wife was on the porch. She took one look at Elton’s face, and took him inside, and said not one word to Merrick, but she looked over Elton’s shoulder as she led him in. It was the look of a woman who understood exactly what had happened, telling Merrick without a word that it was not his fault, or that if it was, she forgave him.

He was not sure which. He went home. Elton survived. He lived, but he was not the same after that.

He gave up his deputy’s badge in the spring. He and his wife moved to Little Rock, and Elton worked in a hardware store. Years later, Merrick heard that Elton had done well at the store and lived a good life. Merrick was glad to hear it.

He never saw Elton again. Digger never came back. The three old dogs stayed with Merrick until the last of them died of old age in the spring of 1935. Merrick himself gave up the warden’s post in the last week of November of that year.

He did not tell Boyd Cowell why. He did not need to. Boyd shook his hand at the door of the county office and said: “Take care of yourself, son. ” That was all.

Merrick moved down off the mountain. Not far. Not to a city. He could never abide cities.

He moved to flat land west of Russellville, his wife’s home country, and drove a rural mail route for a few years. Then he took a job with the state agricultural office. Then he retired. He lived there until he was old.

Until he told me this story, on a porch overlooking an empty valley, where nothing walks, nothing watches, nothing calls his name in a voice that is not there. He told it to me once. He told it to me whole, without stopping. When he finished, he sat for a long while staring at the valley.

Then he said one more thing. He said the grandmother had told him at her door that day, when he was leaving her cabin, something he never wrote down. She said it softly, so softly he almost did not hear it. She said the mountain remembered him now.

That it had looked at him, and looked past him, but it had looked. And she said that if the mountain has looked at a person, even from far off, it keeps the shape of that person somewhere inside itself, and knows it. And she said that a person the mountain had once looked at would hear its voice sometimes, for the rest of his life: in the last moments before sleep, or standing at a window at night, or in a room that had suddenly gone quiet. He would hear it.

The voice would not be loud. It would be one voice, calling his name, a voice he could not help but answer. And she told him the rule he would keep for the rest of his life was the one he already knew: do not answer, do not turn, do not look. Not once.

Not ever. Merrick told me on that porch that he had kept that rule. He had kept it for forty-two years when he told me the story. He said he thought he would keep it for a little while longer.

Then he asked me if I wanted more coffee. I said yes, and he went inside to get it. And while he was inside, I sat on the porch, and the valley was full of the light and the sounds of midday, and there was nothing wrong with it at all. Nothing.

But I remember that I sat there and did not turn when he came back. I heard him coming. I heard the door and the porch boards and his footsteps behind me, and I did not turn, not until he was back in the chair beside me, setting down the coffee cup, a man in the daylight beside me again. And I have sometimes wondered why I did that.

I think I still wonder, sometimes. That is the story. That is what Merrick Ashdown told me.

And this is what he told me: the Cherokee grandmother told him in the autumn of 1932, in a small cabin at the end of a road that was nearly gone, in a hollow in the Ozarks, that the people who lived nearby did not always call things by name.

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